meepettemu

In three weeks, I will be thirty-two. This year seems to have flown by.

For my birthday, hamster bought me/us tickets to go see La Cage Aux Folles, which was on Friday just gone. It was amazing. I loved it. Barrowman as Zsa Zsa was great. I don't have a TV, so I've never really paid that much attention to him, and somehow, had always thought of him as quite small. I also had a small moment beforehand, when I wondered if I wasn't actually going to see John Inman, so was quite relieved to find it was in fact, Barrowman (this was recorded and aired the night we saw it. he's singing from 1:50 if you want to see as little as possible of Paul O'Grady!) He's also somewhat taller than I had thought!

He had a small moment when he corpsed on stage, and we all cheered. It was beautiful. As hasmter and her housemate put it, this version was a bit more "tits and ass", than the previous version they'd seen, and I can see why - they could have made a lot more of some of the more emotional parts, but it was brilliant, and well done, and they had a standing ovation at the end.

Barrowman was collecting for Macmillan at the end, so I got to walk past him, and I swear, I turned just a little bit bi in that instant, developing an instant crush that, if I'm honest, hasn't quite gone away. It's not strong enough to buy a tv though... (not when there's the internet, anyway).

It was a fabulous way to start my birthday and makes me very happy.

Seriously. I feel like I keep repeating myself, but you know. What can I say?

I now have a job. Sure, it's not great, but it beats no job. It can only get better. And today, when I went to give in the work I'd done for my lecturer, she gave me the paper copy of the PCOS paper we've just had published. So I'm now a published author, and very happy about it.

It's still one of those "on paper, doesn't look so good" things, but in my heart, it's happy.

And my, do I sound sappy. I don't care. I'm happy.

I'm just killing time until the hamster gets here.

the 'writer's block' question is "what was your first job?".

As a child growing up, it was something of a war zone between my parents. My mum had no money, and my dad didn't see why he should give her any, much less us pocket money. And in fairness, we lived in the middle of nowhere, with one village shop about 1.5 miles away. For the most part, we didn't *need* money.

But as a teenage girl, 'girl' being the important part of this equation, money for Things comes in useful once a month-ish. And being painfully shy, it was incredibly hard to ask my mother.

So somehow (and I have no idea how i GOT the job) at about 14, I landed a job at the local hotel, a mile or so away, working mostly in the ballroom as a waitress.

this was the days before minimum wage, so I worked 5 hours 6.30-11.30 1-5 times a week (Christmas being a busy time), and I earnt £6.30 per night. I'd say "before tax", but you'd have to be working an AWFUL lot of those to even have to *pay* tax. (If you worked a 6hour shift christmas day, they paid £25)

It was great. Not least because of the food. We used to do functions, and this was before beef on the bone was dis and re-allowed, so each table used to have a large rack of beef, with three large pots of veg; roast potatoes, sprouts, carrots, usually. Starters and deserts also.

Now, as everywhere pretty much, we allowed doggybags; if a table asked for their beef, we wrapped it up and gave it to them. Mostly we hoped that they didn't, cos then we'd wrap it up and take it. Technically, it was stealing I guess, but whatever wasn't taken home was put into large binbags and binned. At the end of the night, you'd see ten or so binliners of wasted food. The managers knew it happened and turned a blind eye, I guess figuring that at least it was coming in useful, and even back then, those of us waitressing were for the most part, either students, or very poor.

We used to try and keep favourite deserts too. We'd never not offer them to customers; if they were in the kitchen when we needed them, we'd serve them, but my, there were some deserts that we really hoped would be leftover at the end of the night. IF you were lucky enough to get beef (basically, you only got them from YOUR tables, you didn't ask other teams if any of theirs didn't want theirs), then you took them home. It was a very beefy-smelling bus home, although in winter, it was like having in-built central heating, or, if you lived close enough, which i did for the first couple of years, you, traditionally, walked home, with you and your colleague who lived close by, stuffing yourselves as you went. And when you got home, you would generally be pounced on by all of your family. This was good meat. Great taste, good quality. And we didn't eat beef often. My family loved my job for that!

We used to serve coffee as a default, but if someone asked for tea, they'd get a mains plate, with a pot of tea, a cup, a pot of milk, and sugar on it. Generally, you could get two of those on a tray.

Each plate should have a doily on, and each tray a tray-liner. this is important. Lack of one of these has disastrous consequences. Tea used water that was kept boiling until it came out of the tap. I had two of these one night, so took them on the same tray, but we'd run out of tray-liners. Half way across the kitchen, the newly-poured teapot plate slid on the tray and emptied itself over my arm. For some reason, I just froze. It felt like the entire kitchen stopped to look at me. I remember a chef shouting at me: "put the tray down!" but I was feet away from a surface and didn't feel like I could move. A manager came up at speed and took the tray, telling me to go into the staff toilet and take off my shirt.

My over-riding thought was "but I can't, you're a lesbian!" (Yes, I know.) But I did. I had massive burns all across my left forearm. I spent the rest of the night with frozen peas on my arm, waiting for the work bus home.

That was the week my parents were away. When they got back, I'd had my jaw broken by a girl in a pub, and had an accident on my moped leaving me with massive bruising and lymphodoema in my left leg. You can imagine the looks on their faces when I went limping out to meet them as they pulled up. Didn't stop them going away in the future though.

that's sickly-ness, not sick lines.

But you know, overall, I cannot remember a time when I have been happier. I cannot remember being 9 months into a relationship, and still be so excited to see the person I'm seeing, to be thinking "tomorrow, tomorrow I'll see her". Or be so looking forward to spending so much time with someone, to be so compatible.

I'm never bored with her; we have similar interests, similar likes and dislikes. We sit on the bed and picnic (this may be a recurring theme in my life..), I read to her, books, LJ, or tell stories. She shares with me radio 4 comedy, and dubious DVDs (dubious only for their humour content, rather than any age-related reasons).

We go out, we walk. We get wet in the rain, and burnt in the sun. We browse bookshops, I follow her round the clothes shops, often whining like a petulant child who has had enough hours ago and just needs to go home. Or to be ensconced in Starbucks with their favourite drink and a pastry.

After tomorrow, we have a month together, with only 5 days apart. I guess that time will indeed tell. If she still wants to be near me, after seeing what I'm like being with someone else that long, it will be impressive.

We will spend a fortnight at home, dog-sitting, whilst my parents are in Spain, and then we go there ourselves. We spend a week at the flat, and then what will hopefully be four amazing days in Barcelona, wandering along Las Ramblas, into the market, where I will make her try strange tapas, and she will try it with that face that looks a bit like a dog chewing a thistle, and a resigned air of "i'm only doing this because you make me". and occasionally, she will be surprised, and find something she likes. Mostly, she will be glad when each small ordeal is over, and look towards me for some reward, which is generally going to be the sight of me laughing at the faces she is pulling.

We will go to La Sagrada Familiar, and hopefully Gaudi's park to the north, and mew over the plights of the animals in small cages. I will avoid coffee, as I have never managed to find the right Spanish words for the way I like it, and we will drown ourselves in sunshine and diet coke.

Does this sound idyllic? Am I painting a vision of something that can't occur? I think not. Our times together generally involve a lot of laughter and joy. Being me, we cannot avoid the deep conversations that occur, and certainly it hasn't always been an easy road, but I do know, and she knows, that however our lives go on, and whoever else is there, we want each other and are happy to work on that.

There's a picture on my sidebar that comes up every now and then; it just came up as I wrote. serendipitous. It is of us lying together in the grass in the sun. For both of us, it is one of our favourite images of us. It seeps a happiness that we can't explain, but even at the time when we had split up, and I had taken her somewhere with my friends, because she had asked to come beforehand and I had said she could, people who didn't know, were telling us we looked good together. People tell us they like seeing us together, and for me, that is confirmation that the internal is being reflected out. And I like this.

I woke up, all nice and comfy, unable to believe it was quite morning (the neighbours had a party til late, and I have decided, I really don't like lady gaga. I don't like any of the other songs either, but i don't know what they were. 2am music blaring through your brain is enough to make anyone not like it. Buuut, I digress).

So, morning has arrived. Beautiful, sunny day. Or, wet and windy. Pick whichever version you feel is best. Personally, I want to know where the summer has gone.

And here I am, pondering the fact that I need to clean my ear. I think that my body pays attention when I'm not listening, and sets out to spite me. Just yesterday I was saying to hamster that I felt my new piercing had magic piercing-cleaning abilities, as I had somehow forgotten it needed cleaning 3x a day, and had been managing about 1 a day or once every 2 days. Not 6 hours after saying this, did my ear turn a bit red and shouty.

Cue me on the phone "my ear hurts. It hurts!" and the rather quicksmart return of the Savlon. So this morning I wake and think "quick! Must clean ear!"; some kind of biological imperative that says "hamster has hard pillows. This ear needs to be in the best shape it can be, to cope. Get Savlon on NOW!"

So I sit up, grab cotton pads and savlon, and apply savlon to cotton pad. And then I think "why is it fizzing? Savlon doesn't fizz!"

But you know what? The bottle of diet coke sitting next to the bed does. I'm not sure that it would have cleaned my ear as well, had I got that far.

I then gave myself a good half an hour (after successfully going on to apply Savlon) before making coffee, in case my befuddled brain decided to try drinking, oh you know, straight from the kettle or something. But I am pleased to announce that all is well. Now I just need to get dressed, and face the day....

Thanks mostly to the wonderfulnes of being_here I am back in the land of the mids. With its wonderful weather, and multitude of jobs going, it's quite the place to be.

But aside from anything, it's home. The job hunt is 'going'. I have a place to be in the dry, Kerrang plays on the radio again, wifi is the best invention ever, what more do I need?

Very very happy to be back :-D

It seems it has. Today, a year ago, I was at the house of Lee and Claire, with two of my best friends in the world, babysitting, as it was Claire's teacher night party end of year thing.


Lee made us the most fabulous cake, and supplied us with plenty of chocolate. It was like being 14 and babysitting again (expect I didn't get left chocolate and cakes then).

It was a mixture of nights for me. I thought it would be the first time i didn't hear from T in a day (and then she sent me a text at 11.40 unable to let the day end without saying hi), and whilst being sad, seemed fitting that my time in Cov ended with Dee and Carey.

Lee and Claire got home to find me reading out loud Bete Du Jour's 'first time with a virtual lady' and trying not to cry from laughter. Hilarity ensued with Butch the dancing wonder dog (I miss butch!) and amusement from all involved.

It was a great way to spend my last weekend. More so if it means Lee's making more cakes for my return *grins*

This time last year, I was almost as miserable as I've ever been. In terms of happiness, I've hardly looked back. Leaving was exactly the right thing to do, at exactly the right time. I don't see how I could have lived much more in that situation, nor could I have easily extricated myself from it without moving away away.

So much for the people who told me i "needed" counselling, or that I wasn't strong, or any of those things. I'm happier now than I've ever been, and although marginally scared of moving back (having no job, in this climate? not so fun), it's not the end of the world..

I'm looking forward to this, to going back, to going home.

Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

Z gives me the letter P.

Let's see....

Haha. My media player hasn't pulled all the info for all the songs. So whilst I have a lot of "track one"s listed.. I only have 4 P songs:

Put the world on stop - Sean Fournier

Promise Promise - You me at six

Piece of my heart - The Killers

Pandora - Madina Lake

And not in my player, but i like it:

Please don't leave me - Pink

Last night, after he'd consumed a bottle of wine, my stepfather, who doesn't usually drink, was waxing lyrical. One of the things he said to me was "I don't know if i agree with your sexuality." I responded saying that agreeing with it or not didn't come into it. It was what it was; I didn't *choose* it.

His rejoinder was "I don't know if i can be bothered to talk about it"

It hurt.

(This was a facebook thing to start with): Yes or No Questions.........have fun!

Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? Yes (more than one *starts counting...stops*)

Been arrested? Nope. For I am a paragon of virtue.

Kissed someone you didn't like? Nope

Slept in until 5 PM?Yes. And why not?

Fallen asleep at work/school? No never. School and work are FAR too entertaining for that. Today's question of the day: "what's a libido?"

Held a snake? Yes. BIG snake.

Ran a read light?Yes

Been suspended from school? No. See paragon of virtue, above.

Experienced love at first sight? No. Infatuation at, perhaps!

Totaled your car in an accident?No

Been fired from a job? No. Still good!

Fired somebody? Ooooh. I wish. (no).

Sang karaoke? Yes. (see facebook!)

Pointed a gun at someone? No

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Yes

Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes

Kissed in the rain? Yeah

Had a close brush with death (your own)? Yes

Seen someone die? No

Played spin-the-bottle? No (still innocent.)

Sang in the shower? Yes

Smoked a cigar? Ewwww. No.

Sat on a rooftop? Yes

Taken pictures of yourself naked? Yes.

Smuggled something into another country? Does cheese count? Or those cigarettes i forgot to declare?

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? No, surprisingly.

Broken a bone? Yep. Jaw and Hand. Someone broke my jaw bone for me. My hand i did myself. Wasn't my best plan.

Skipped school? Yes

Eaten a bug? Yes. Chocolate ants in fact. and perhaps a mealworm?

Sleepwalked?No

Walked a moonlit beach? Yes

Rode a motorcycle? Yes

Dumped someone? Yes

Forgotten your anniversary? No

Lied to avoid a ticket? No. Never been stopped to be tried to give one.

Ridden on a helicopter? No

Shaved your head? No

Blacked out from drinking? Nope

Played a prank on someone? Yes

Hit a home run? Yes. Go rounders!

Felt like killing someone? No. Not seriously at least.

Cross-dressed? hehehe. yes. but not to the point of creating my own stubble..

Been falling-down drunk? Yes

Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? Yes

Eaten snake? Nope

Marched/Protested? Yes

Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? No. Aren't they beans? Can one have a bean as a pet?

Puked on amusement ride? No

Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? Yes

Been in a band? No

Knitted? Yes

Been on TV? Not as far as i know.

Shot a gun? no

Skinny-dipped? No

Gave someone stitches? No

Eaten a whole habanero pepper? No

Ridden a surfboard? No. Bodyboard..

Went water skiing? No

Drank straight from a liquor bottle? Yes

Had surgery? Yes

Streaked? No

Ridden in a hot air balloon? No

Taken by ambulance to hospital? Yes. Again not one of my finest hour.

Tripped on mushrooms?No. They're generally in the fridge by the time i get to them.

Passed out when not drinking? Yes

Peed on a bush? Yes

Donated Blood? No. To my shame.

Grabbed electric fence? Yes

Eaten alligator meat? No

Eaten cheesecake? Yes

Candy? Yes

Killed an animal when not hunting? No

Hit someone in the face? No

Hitchhiked? No

Peed your pants in public? No

Tattoo? Yes

Snuck into a movie without paying? No

Sleep on a certain side of the bed? Yes: the side that lets me get in and out.

Stayed up for 48 hours straight? No

Think about the future? No. Never.

Been in handcuffs? Yes

Believe in love? Yes

Work today. I knew it would be bad from the moment i realised that Ant would be sitting on my row. She's a boor and I've disliked her since my first (and only) interaction with her.

IT's very quiet at work. people tend to read. And given that the collective IQ of call centres is not known for its great heights, they tend to read trashy magazines. And so i heard, in the dulcit tones of the boor: "He's paying for a vagina by being a bikini model".

My supervisor replied with "she's a she".
"No, he's a he".

At this point I piped up "No, SHE, is a she".

"he's a he".

I lost my temper then (i'd have been more patient with someone i liked) and pretty much shouted at her saying "she's a she, and don't even try going there with me".

"He's a he, he's got a male body".

"and in her head, she's a woman, she just doesn't quite have the body to match yet".

"he's a he".

"So, you judge people on what they look like, do you?" (pertinent; she must weigh over 20stone)

"No, I don't judge people at all".

"so, she's a she then."

She had no comeback. I'm sure i was bitched about after i left the room, but frankly, i don't care.

I just don't get how people can sit and say "I don't judge", whilst making a judgement. And about something they know nothing about.

complete with bad spelling. Feel free to ignore. Just playing :D

The cat's been getting more and more bold this week. We have *gasp* a garden! And the cat, who has never been a huge fan of the outdoors, has decided that there is a pressing need to investigate this World Of Green. I'm thinking the desire has been stimulated by all of the aloe she's been eating; she needs to know what ELSE is out there she can eat.

Anyhow, yesterday she was moaning at me to let her out of my room about 8am (we have a dog, and the way our house is laid out, my room is in the pathway from my parents' room to anywhere else, so unless i want Dog at stupid hours of the morning, it's the most sensible thing. So off she went. Five minutes later i could hear her miaowing, and i was thinking it was fairly quiet for her, so i decided she was ok and ignored her. Mum got out of the shower, and opened my bedroom door thinking she was IN my room (my mother has a great habit of opening my bedroom door if she feels there's a need (generally when the cat is either wailing to come in, or go out of it. She doesn't get that sometimes, there's a REASON I haven't moved to let the cat in, nor does she think "She has company, maybe i should leave her to it. Nope, her house; if she wants to come in, she will..)


So i say out loud "she doesn't want to come in"., thinking mother is letting her in. No cat appears, but wailing continues, and then it strikes me, and we dash downstairs, to find the cat, shut OUTSIDE on the patio, wailing because she thinks she's been left for ever. Mum sweers she was outside for a second, and that Chloe was upstairs when she went out. This is the third time this week this has happened. I fear i have an escapologist cat.

Right now, she's on my lap. It's inconvenient, but she doesn't recognise the laptop as a legitimate reason for not having Cat On Lap and will just work herself in between. The only thing she does recognise as legitimate is a plate, but to be honest, the plate is just not as nice to stroke, neither does it purr at you.

:o)

Wooo, baaaa! (stolen from gui)

Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?! "Have you ever kissed someone? Missed someone? Told someone you loved them? Drank alcohol?" Bah!

So instead, here are 49 questions for people who are a little older.

*What bill do you hate paying the most?
All of them? Petrol.

*Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
An actual planned "this will be a romantic dinner"? I can't remember what it was called. With the Hamster in London last year. Fish restaurant. Really nice.

*What do you really want to be doing right now?
Sunbathing

*How many colleges did you attend?
Went to 6th form, didn't last long there. Then we tot the local college. Didn't last long there either. Then i went back to college as a "mature" student, got me ACCESS course, then Coventry Uni. Now back there again.

*Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
It's the usual Friday dilemma: oh no; dress down! But i saw the shrug i knitted last night, and figured I'd wear it today.

*What are your thoughts on gas prices?
That the Americans have it easy :p

*First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
I was in the shower already :o)

*Last thought before going to sleep last night?
I wish i was asleep

*Do you miss being a child?
Mostly, no.


*What errand/chore do you despise?
All of them? Washing up probably.

*Get up early or sleep in?
Lie in, lie in!

*Have you found real love yet?
Define real? That quiet gentle love that makes you cry when you end it? The crushing love that makes you very bouncy? The mad passion you feel? The knowing you want someone around for a very long time? Yep. Felt them :o)


*What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart?
Very, VERY excited! All those THINGS, and so CHEAP! :o)

*Beach or lake?
Hmm. Can't i have a beach AT the lake?

*Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
Yes and no. I don't like the distinction between marriage and civil partnerships, but i love that if you want, you can just turn up and get your partnership certificate with no fuss. :o)

*Sopranos or Desperate Housewives?
Not a clue

*What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
Ellen Degeneres

*Have you ever crashed your vehicle?
Nope. But someone crashed into me yesterday as i was parked. Luckily for him, he did no damage.

*Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
Nope.

*Ring tone?
Various. Pink, Chesney..

*Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
No idea. Aeroplane on the way to Oz maybe

*Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
Anywhere?

*Do you go to church?
Until they threw me out :o)

*At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
Being jobless, and having several potential love-type things on the horizon, a career would be great.

*How old are you?
31

*Do you have a go-to person?
Yes :o)

*Are you where you want to be in life?
No. But this is not a bad place to be.

*Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons?
I didn't watch TV. Nothing changes :o)

*What about you do you think has changed the most?
I'm more prepared to go for the things i want. And more prepared to see other people's points of view.

*Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life?
No :o)

*Are there times you still feel like a kid?
Many times, and I act like one, too.

*Did you ever own troll dolls?
No. I was aware of them.

*Did you have a pager?
What was i, Doogie Howser? :o)

*Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager?
I lived in a little village. I didn't 'hang out'..

*Were you the type of kid you would want your children to hang out with?
Yeah, i guess.

*Who do you think impacted your life the most?
My parents.

Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out for you?
Mrs Scutt :o)

"hi,there,have,you,had,a,nice,day"



my response?

"hello. are you missing a space bar?"

original, i know.

In other news, my knuckles hurt from trying to make the moron next door hear me over his music (and failing).

It was a beautiful day, and i enjoyed it :o)

Sheeps. I should be in bed, but parents are hammering the ironing board.

50 things you have never been asked until about 30 seconds from now ... (and perhaps with good reason)...

Once you've been tagged, answer this and tag 15 people,including the person who tagged you.

Purpe and white

2. Name one person who made you smile today:
Dee

3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
Sleeping

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
Talking to Aisy

5. What is your favorite candy bar?
Mmmm. Peanut butter Kitkat? Twirl? so many to choose

6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Nope.

7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
You can have my ironing board. It's not fancy, but it's a board, and you can iron on it.

8. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Cookie dough.

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Diet coke

10. Do you like your wallet?
Yes. But I'd prefer one in tigger.

11. What was the last thing you ate?
Lamb chop and vegetables.

12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
No.

13. The last sporting event you watched?
Bits of F1 qualifying last week when i was getting coffee.

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
Pain, sugar or salted.

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
Carey :o)

16. Ever go camping?
Yep! Last time was Brighton pride

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
No, i attempt not to need to.

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
Hahahahaha (I just didn't bother changing that one)

19. Do you have a tan?
a bit

20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
Yep!

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
Sometimes. If I'm in a restaurant and there's a straw available.

22. What did your last text message say?
sent to me? "you'll be very welcome :-) xxx"

23. What are you doing tomorrow?
working 9-5, then essaying.

24. WHERE IS 24?!?
who what?

25. Look to your left, what do you see?
a plant, my printer, a watering can, the table.

26. What color is your watch?
I don't wear one.

27. What do you think of when you hear of Australia?
When Nina and i went in September 2000 and something (can't remember)

28. What is your birthstone?
Opal? No idea.

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
Don't really tend to eat fast food, but generally would go in.

30. What is your favorite number?
1812, or 1234, which are really my favourite times.

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
Ais :o)

32. Any plans today?
Bed?

33. How many states have you lived in?
None! Counties, three

34. Biggest annoyance right now?
knowing i should go to bed, and not wanting to sleep.

35. Last song listened to?
"This is my father's house", it was on TV and i found it on youtube. Before that, would have been Kings of Leon.

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
Aye.

37. Do you have a maid clean your house?
Hahahahahaha

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
I share them out.

39. Are you jealous of anyone?
Yeah. I'm jealous that i can't be with my friends immediately when i want to be :o)


40. Is anyone jealous of you?
Maybe? I don't know.

41. Do you love anyone?
Yes. I love lots and lots of people.

42. Do any of your friends have children?
Yeah. But nto many of them.

43. What do you usually do during the day?
Sell car insurance?

44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
no. what's the point?

45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
Yes.

46. What color is your car?
White. And oddly, when DRIVING my car yesterday (to try and get my ear pierced after getting made redunat and failing, and then going to get my hair cut and failing at that too) I was thinking "I'd hate to have a white car; i remember having a white car". Hmmmm.

47. Do you like cats?
Mew!

48. Are you thinking about someone right now?
Right now, I'm thinking of the cat!

49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
Whowhatnow?

50. How did you get your worst scar?
Surgery

So I'd talked about it, even said i would. But until you've had to make that irrevocable step, nothing's final. In my head I'd begun to think "maybe i should stay; i have a job here" etc etc.

My entire office was made redundant yesterday without warning. 250 jobs lost, July.

So i guess no there's no real reason to stay, but I'm really hating the fact that i have no choice, no safety net there any more.

The office closed yesterday so i had the afternoon off, but it's work as usual today, so we're all going in.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lggnxDgSCzE

because i know you'll like it :D (The music's a bit dire tho!)


*grins*

It's harder than you think!! Here is what you are supposed to do...and please don't spoil the fun...copy and paste into your own note, type in your answers and tag a bunch of people - including me.

Where is your cell phone..................on the table with me

Your hair.....................................purple and fading :(

Your father.................................No idea. work maybe?

Your favorite thing......................... to do? that i own? Right now? My cat.

Your dream last night......................ah, not very innocent I'm afraid.

Your favorite drink.........................Diet cherry coke :o)

Your dream/goal............................For the present? Dr Lynne

The room you are in........................Living room

Your fear.................................... losing my friends.

Where do you want to be in 6 years....Dr Lynne. Happy, settle.

Muffins.......................................Great inventions, especially the FoodToGo blueberry ones.

One of your wish list items................Mmmmmm. A book or two..

Where you grew up.......................Ipswich

The last thing you did......................Typed on here? drank a mouthful of coffee, made toast, breathed?

What are you wearing.....................dressy brown top, black skirt, brown tights

Your TV......................................Off, permanently if i had my way.

Your pets....................................Cat, chloe. Mother's dog.

Your computer..............................Laptop

Your life......................................Better than it has been, by far :o)

Your mood...................................Optomistic, bouncy, hopeful!

Missing someone............................Yes. Lots of people.

Your car or SUV.............................Peugeot. 106 maybe?

Favorite store............................... I don't shop, so i don't know.

Your summer.................................Happy, and filled with moving i hope

Your favorite colour..........................Sometimes yellow, sometimes blue, sometimes purple.

When is the last time you laughed......... At a text message from Rach. last night.

Last time you cried........................... Leaving London

One person who emails me................. Philip

One of my favorite foods................... Chicken

One place I would rather be right now.... Back in bed?

One person I think will respond.............Jo *grins*

Rules: Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers and replace with your own then tag 25 friends so they can do the same!

1. How old will you be in five years?.... 36. Olllld.

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?....my parents. At least, I am on the sofa and they are downstairs drilling and watching 'allo 'allo.

3. How tall are you?.... 5'5.5

4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?... most? Friday, meeting up with Ian, Devon with Vicki, being in Coventry for the weekend.

5. What's the last movie you saw? ....finding nemo :o)

6. Who was the last person you called?.....the hamster

7. Who was the last person to call you? ... Rach

8. What was the last text message you received?..haha, not sharing!

9. Who was the last person to leave you a voicemail?....Rach

10. Do you prefer to call or text?....text, but it depends on the person.

11. What were you doing at 12am last night?.. Driving home

12. Are your parents married/separated/divorced? ...divorced, and married. not to each other.

13. When is the last time you saw your mum?..today.

14. What colour are your eyes?....green

15. What time did you wake up today?....9.45

16. What are you wearing right now?......black and white slippers, black tracksuit bottoms, a black vest top and a giant cardigan. I haven't got dressed yet.

17. What is your favorite Christmas song?..... Slade. I wish it could be christmas..

18. Where is your favorite place to be?..in bed..

19. Where is your least favorite place to be? cold in the cold.

20. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?.....Australia

21. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?... Dr Lynne i hope!

22. Do you tan or burn?....tan :o)

23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? dunno. was far too busy reading to worry about things like that!

24. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?... Oh i don't know.. We had a great night last night and laughed a lot. i couldn't name one particular thing!

25. How many TVs do you have in your house?.....4. I don't watch any of them!

26. How big is your bed?... single, unless i have company, or can't be bothered to take it back down.

27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?.. both, but using the laptop.

28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?....depends on whether I'm alone or with company, and who the company is ;o)

29. What color are your sheets?....... right now? lilac bottom sheet, and a cream duvet.

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?....2

31. What is your favorite season?......summer

32. What do you like about autumn?....the rain

33. What do you like about winter? .....snow

34. What do you like about the summer?...The smell of skin in the sun, the way it makes me feel.

35. What do you like about spring?.. the potential. crisp mornings, that mist you only get in spring and autumn.

36. How many counties have you lived in? 1, so far.

37. What cities/towns have you lived in? .... Ipswich and Coventry.

38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet? ...bare feet or socks

39. Are you a social person?.... yes

40. What was the last thing you ate?..... toast :o)

41. What is your favorite restaurant?.. here? Mizu's or East Ocean. In Cov, the noodle bar :o)

42. What is your favorite ice cream?...cookie dough

43. What is your favorite dessert? ... so many to choose. i think it's cruel to only let me choose one!

44. What is your favorite kind of soup? ... homemade tomato, or homemade chicken (cream of)

45. What kind of jelly do you like? ......strawberry

46. Do you like Chinese food? .... ..Yes

47. Do you like coffee? ...yes

48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?..... none..

49. What do you drink in the morning? .... coffee

51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed? yes, all of them

52. Do you know how to play Poker?...yes. i know the rules..

53. Do you like to cuddle?..yes

54. Have you ever been to Canada?...no.

55. Do you have an addictive personality?.. Are people addicted to me? Couldn't tell you. I don't believe in "addictive personalities", so, no.

56. Do you eat out or at home more often?....out, but that's just generally cos I'm not often at home.

58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you? ......yep.

59. Do you want kids? .... no.

60. Do you speak any other languages?...some french, some sign.

61. Have you ever gotten stitches? ..... yep

62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? .....er yeah. not my finest moment.

63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool? ...the ocean

64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat? ...window

65. Do you know how to drive? ...yep!

66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?...books

67. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?...earrings.

68. What is your favorite TV show? .... n/a

69. Can you roll your tongue?.... yeah

70. Who is the funniest person you know? ... Dee

71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?...there's an elephant floating around somewhere. he's not essential tho.

72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?..um. i don't know...

73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?.. nope

74. What red object is closest to you right now? ...red and green blanket that mum has made into the cat's "nest"

75. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth? yep. why waste water?

76. Do you sleep with your wardrobe doors open or closed?.... closed

77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?.... I'd be dead either way i think.

78. Do you flirt a lot?....yeah, but mostly with people I'm not interested in. unless they know i like them.

79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?....my mouth. oh, wait.. that means it has to come out too. maybe not.

80. What is your favorite food?..chicken...

81. Can you change the oil on a car?....yes!

82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?....Um, i don't know. maybe? my license isn't uptodate with address.

83. Have you ever run out of fuel? ...nope.

84. What is your usual bedtime?......Depends on who's on the phone.

85. What was the last book you read? ....I'm reading "The Decameron". The last book i finished was Proust.

86. Do you read the newspaper?... no

87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions? .... no

89. Do you watch soap operas? .. no.

90. Do you dance in the car? ...yes lol and sing

91. What radio station did you last listen to?.... heart

92. Who is in the picture frame closest to you? ....My sister. it's the only one.

93. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?....the reference for train tickets.

94. What is your favorite candle scent? .... hmm. one of several perfumes.

95. What is your favorite board game? .... scrabble

96. When was the last time you attended church? ... Adam's funeral i think. Many years ago.

98. Who was your favorite teacher in secondary school? ...Mrs Scutt, tho i had the biggest crush on my maths teacher.

99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent? a week, a fortnight, i don't know..

100. What is something that you can't wait for?... Oh many things...

101. If you could go back in time is there anything you would change? ... well no. because then I'd change the present, and i rather like the present. If i could change the past without changing the present, again, i don't know.